And it's just one of these days...

Some times I just wish I had someone, anyone here when the flashback occurs. I don't care who, I don't care what they are or what they do, but just someone there to listen to me and let me know that they're there.

And then there are other times when I just don't want to be around anyone because I really fear that they'll see me in a moment of weakness, and I try my hardest not to be weak. I know I am an advocate and that I work at two crisis centers, both of which have the slogan "Asking for help is a sign of strength." But sometimes I just want to handle absolutely everything on my own and not drag other people into it or appear that there's something I just can't take.